Fieldnotes, a forensic
In light and lighter weight are sections that read as if definitions from a dictionary or instructions from a screen play (shooting script). I skip over them noting their presence and think of them as marked off areas to be disinterred. I am consoled by what I read as comments on the process of reading the near unreadable:
Fieldwork necessarily includes failures in reconstruction. Also excessive pleasures. Confusion. Today it was the expression of an absent field. The women gave me means (not memories or dates). Lower bodies vis-à-vis shoulders. Memories vis-à-vis hips. A network of palms. The inner surfaces of fingers. Viscerally stepping beyond the sway of order, proprioceptive more than visual. I felt the weight of reading these patterns.
The body is locked in. It provides traversal of grids. See how the “weight of reading” is elaborated:
Monitoring forearms down routes. Distal ends leading toward paths. The gravity of conduct. Contact. A smile or gaze intricately twisted out from an upper torso. Ephemeral cairns. Unreadable. Still in motion I stretch to graph these principles. The density of this telling of subjects, objects, selves etc.
Note the lack of comma between “selves” and “etc” — it’s as if the subject-object were welded to an interminable series.
And so for day 1777